Update: this is so much harder than I anticipated!  After spending countless and compacted hours together, the irritation could not be denied.  Those little habits, and big ones,  (you know, those that first escape notice) are now glaringly in full frontal view and not only make a female want to scream but their realistic human-ness does not allow the luxury of being able to avoid looking at myself and certainly helps to explain why I have consistently chosen such a rich fantasy life!  The casual liaisons do not require so much work or soul-searching and their impact is minimal; however, this relationship is a different animal and I don’t know if I have what it takes to hang in there.  Someone once said that if you really want to see where your spiritual maturity lies, get into a relationship.  Apparently the saying that “if you spot it, you got it” is more than a euphemism, it is a rip-the-band-aid-off truth…ouch!

To be continued…